Lost Motivation

How is it possible that I lost motivation and it's only day 3. Yesterday and today I definitely fell off the wagon but I'm trying not to get down about it because tomorrow is another day. Last night just involved way too much beer so oops. It tasted really good last night but didn't feel so hot this morning. Anways work has been extremely stressful and I've been overwhelmed a lot so that's my excuse. For some motivation I've been looking at a lot of other weight loss blogs too and I have definitely seen some really awesome stuff so that's very helpful. I've been trying to find The Biggest Loser seasons on DVD but I haven't been able to find any of them....not really sure why? Then to top it off Kosovo internet sucks and won't let me watch them online anywhere. It's like the internet is against me in trying to watch this show.

I've been trying to think of some things to help me with my long journey ahead of me. Short term I'm going to WLC in January meaning I have to take a dreaded PT test at the beginning of January. FML I hate PT tests. If I didn't suck at situps so much it probably wouldn't be so much of a problem. I'm hoping maybe by the time I leave here I'll be ready to run a half marathon maybe......At least a 10K for sure I'm hoping they have some more at Camp Bondsteel because I know they have had a few already they just never let us know about them.

I also tried to buy a tape measure so I could measure my lumps and pumps but of course this stupid PX doesn't sell them here at all. It shouldn't be that difficult to get one you would think but things never cease to amaze me here that's for sure. I did buy some Diet Dr. Pepper and some Slim Fast shake mix stuff. I'm hoping maybe I will like them and I can replace a meal with them. I was thinking breakfast but I love breakfast food too much to do that probably. We'll see how long it last I'm trying very hard to make this last.

My big goal is to look basically amazing in a swimming suit by the time I have leave at the beginning of May. I mean it's pretty sad that my boyfriend has lost tons of weight and here I am just hanging out with the same chubby body. I obviously can't let him show me up so I gotta work on it........This is one of my options for swimsuits/bodies lol. I think she is one of my favorite models too, Marisa Miller. I will look at least somewhat like her someday. Haha

This is another picture just for me and my motivation. Anyways this is all for now. Stay tuned!